Speak Now

I look back at my other entries, and think in some ways I havn't changed, and in other ways I've changed alot. It's amazing how taking the time to pput thing into perspective or meeting an amazing person can completely turn your world around. Before I was lost, I suppose I still am, I mean are't we all always just searching for something or someone; someone to be, someone to love, someone to make the pain go away? I don't think it is being with this guy that makes me happeri, I think it was the fact that I was willing to open myself up again, and just be honest about who I was and what I wanted. I don't know if I was just afraid of being close to someone, or what, but at some point I realized that I never told him what I wanted. I never even asked for him to give me a second chance. People can't read your mind, if you want something, you have to ask for it. As cheesy as it sounds, I actually owe alot of this revalation to my girl, Taylor Swift. Listening to her new album, made me think that I don't want to leae and go to college without him even knowing. So I told him. Turns out he still had feelings there too. I'm not saying I love him, that we'll get married, I know it probably won't last but if I didn;t speak up I would have regretted it. I don't want to have the one that got away. I truely believe that if you are completely open and honest, people will see you for the beautiful person you are. In the words of Swifty, Speak now, because the only words you'll regret are the ones you never say.